I have been challenged. The Lord has definitely been showing me his will in my life. A few weeks ago is when things started to happen. Small things, but soon they grew. The lord was testing. I was frustrated and confused, not knowing what was going on. I felt like everything was just going straight downhill and I had no breaks to slow down. It was then that I realized what the Lord was doing. I thought to myself, "what if this is Gods way of teaching me something?" Boy was I right! Over the last few weeks I have been waiting to see what the Lord has for me. I believe that he has put it on my heart to trust in him, fully. I recently purchased a new devotional book and the first couple devotions I have read in it are about trusting in God. In the one reading the author states this,
"Beloved, never try to get out of a dark place except in God's timing and in His way. A time of trouble and darkness is meant to teach you lessons you desperately need."
I knew right then that what the Lord has been trying to tell me. As it says in Isaiah 50:11, I need to wait for the Lord light in the darkness and not attempt to light my own torch to see. I have found that in this lesson, it has brought great peace. As cheesy as that may sound it is true. Since I have been relying on the Lord in stressful and "dark" situations, I have found myself to be more at ease with life in general. The fact of knowing that He is in control is calming to me. I know that He knows what is best for me and that He will lead me down the path I need to go down. Believe me, at this time and point is has been needed. I praise the Lord for allowing things to happen in my life, because I know that I will learn from them. just like it says in James 1:2-4,
"Consider it pure joy my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not laking in anything."
Parents. I dont know where I would be without my parents. I am so glad that I have the parents I do. My parents have been such a help to me throughout all my life. My mother has always been there to help me through things, to teach me and encourage. My father has always been there to offer wisdom and understanding of things I am not sure about. I am truly blessed to have such great parents. I only wish that I will grow up and mature to be as great as they are.
Boy oh boy, where to begin with the rest of everything happening in my life lol. Well, My computer died the other week, leaving me to redo a lot of homework and such. That was not fun at all. My vans breaks also went out and I had to get them fixed. The place down here wanted a ton of money to fix em, but the place in Cadillac told me they could do it for half price. So I drove all the way home in a snow storm with no breaks. The Lord is amazing I tell you what! and now my stereo has completely died on me as well. It seems things really like to get broke around me lol. But all is ok with me, for like I mention, I am trusting in the Lord. The Lord has put several other things on my heart as well. These things are still in the working I believe because I am still not sure where to go with them. My relationships are being evaluated and I need wisdom from the Lord to show me what to do. All in all, I cannot say it enough, how great our Lord is.
I could go on and on about what has been happening with this, that, work, school etc. But I would be up all night writing about such. I called this Night Thoughts for a reason, not night journaling lol.
Until next time....
"Trust is the most important component of any relationship. If you do not trust a person, you probably do not consider them your friend. The building blocks of friendship are based on sharing the deepest parts of yourself and believing that they will be held sacred. You believe this about your friend and he believes it about you. The more you trust each other, the deeper the friendship that you have built. If you don't have trust in your friend, you don't have a friendship."