Well, I kind of struggled with the title of this one. But I came to the right decision I think. I am at a very unique stage in my life right now. Camp is over and i have since left its so called "bubble." I was actually very excited to leave camp just to get away for a while. Now that I look back at things, I miss it a lot. I am back to the real world as they call it. Living my faith is going to be ten times harder, especially now that I am not surrounded by christians on a constant basis. But it is time to step up and really rely on God to show himself in our lives. One thing that has really helped me that I learned this summer was relying on God. Since camp ended I have almost been in a daze you could say. Things have been flying by and moving so quick I have barely caught my breath. Which brings me to the point of "growing up." College is starting again here soon and everything that comes with that is just piling up all around me. Living situations has been a huge chuck of that this year. I am officially moving out of my house and getting a place with three other guys. The responsibility alone is stressful enough. But when relying on God I have no worries. I am stressed and mind boggled, distraught and lost. Yet when I take time and thank God for the day, and ask him to show me what he wants in my life, I have a huge rush of calm come over me. That is how I know he is working. Living on my own is going to be tough, and challenging. With God by my side though, I will never grow tired or fall short.
Another thing that has been really budding in my life is my friends. Working at camp and meeting new people has been a blessing from God. The people in my life right now are so amazing. God has truly blessed me with my friends. Honestly I am coming up and little short, and have a loss of words of how to describe things. After being with them and going our separate ways like going home or to school, I dont know what to think. I have came home to a huge change at home. Making a few changes in the way I live my life has been rough on being at home. It all seems very painful until i think about the friends I have elsewhere, and that I will be with soon. The other day I had the chance to meet and hang out with a lot of them. Later on when it was over and I was heading home, I had a weird feeling come over me. I was very emotional that some were leaving and that I would not see them for a while. But at the same time I was praising God that I have people like that in my life. One person in my life that I thank God for every day is Heidi. She is the most amazing girl I have ever met. without Heidi in my life I really dont know where I would be. She has always been the one that is there to listen as well as to give advice, to comfort and encourage. Heidi is the true definition of a friend. And I miss here dearly.
Life really comes at us fast. Its hard to catch everything and take it in as it flies by. One of the things that we really need to make sure we catch are our friends. The Lord puts them in our lives for a reason. Sometimes you can fight and sometimes you get along. Either way, they will be there for you, and you will be there for them. Both helping each other grow and learn throughout this adventure we call life.
As the years pass and we grow apart, I want you to know that you guys are in my heart. You helped me through problems, through things good and bad. You helped me keep smiling when I was sad. You made me stay strong. How will I live, when you guys are gone? And where the years take us, no place is too far. We will think of each other wherever we are. You're wonderful people with good hearts to lend, and I want you to know that you'll always be my best friends!
Who will tell whether one happy moment of love or the joy of breathing or walking on a bright morning and smelling the fresh air, is not worth all the suffering and effort which life implies
